I had several different joyful moments in my day today; it was quite difficult for me to choose just one. But I don’t want to write all night, so a selection must be made – and so here it is:
During a meeting at work this afternoon, a colleague gave a very powerful presentation. Partway through the story, the speaker paused mid-sentence, breathed deeply and swallowed hard; we could all tell the person was trying to hold back tears. I continued to look at the presenter with a very encouraging expression on my face; and as my heart extended towards the front of the room, I heard my mind say (with a very empathetic and compassionate tone), “We all want you to succeed.” And in that moment, *I* began to struggle to keep myself together.
As a result of both my yoga practice and my meditation practice, each day I become increasingly self-aware of what is happening in my body, my mind, and my heart.
Sadly, most of the time my awareness shows me how focused I am on critical assessment and requisite improvement: how my body slouches (so how I need to stand up straighter), how my mind obsesses and ruminates (so how I need to work on letting go and relaxing), how my internal dialogue is self-judgmental (so how I need to be more accepting)… And while it’s good to know what is going on inside, it’s also slightly depressing, disheartening, and at times discouraging to see exactly how often I am not very kind to myself.
So when I heard the words, “We all want you to succeed” echo in my mind, I realized exactly how accepting, relaxed, and compassionate I really can be. As the words came to my mind, my heart filled exclusively with empathy – and my face lit up with a smile. Today I got to become aware of – to viscerally feel – all of the good that is in me; that is in all of us. Wow, it was powerful. And amazing. Truly beautiful.
The speaker did collect herself, carry on with the story, and share the message she intended. And while the presentation was very good all by itself, I got to get even more out of the experience – and for that, I’m truly grateful.