This week has been an unusual one for me. My routine schedules have been thrown off completely; and while it’s good for me to get pulled from my habits (and therefore the comfort I find in structure, predictability, familiarity), it also tires me. Physically, mentally, and emotionally I have become more and more fatigued as the week has worn on.
Today, I faced a daunting number of tasks before me – and just not enough time to complete them all. So, what’s going to give? Am I going to sacrifice the things I want to do for the things I have to do? Or am I going to push myself too fast, too hard, and try to get everything done – but at the end of the day likely still fall a little short, and wind up irritated and exhausted? Or am I going to push some things down to the bottom of the list yet *again* – things I have wanted to address for a few weeks now, but things that technically “can” get moved to another day (so they do)? What’s today’s non-optimal choice going to be? Ugh. This morning I found myself trying to make those decisions, and ended up feeling sad, annoyed, and overwhelmed – and all before 6 am. Crap.
As I showered (and came to terms with all of the noise running around in my head) I realized that today I absolutely need yoga; so I did go to my Friday morning 8 am get-my-little-booty-handed-to-me vinyasa class – and it was terrific. Okay, I feel a little bit better.
Immediately following the class I drove to the grocery store (because buying food is a non-negotiable task; it simply must get done), and attempted to purchase the items on my list as quickly and efficiently as possible. As I was determinedly pushing my cart from aisle to aisle (only slowing slightly to grab items from shelves and toss them into the basket; never fully stopping once), I passed by this sign:
Ha, talk about a *sign*! I’ve said it before, and I’m confident I’ll say it again: There’s no such thing as coincidences. Message received. Thank you.
There are many more things I have on my to-do list for today: oil change, shopping for a dress/suit, studying, preparing for two big meetings at work next week, catching up on email, paying bills….too many things to do, none of which I really want to do, all of which will take more time to do than what I have…and again, I find myself in a similar spot as I was this morning. Only now, I have a reminder, a “mantra” to remind me to settle down, stay cool, relax. It will all be okay. It will all work out. It always does. Just do the best that I can – and then let go.
In other words, keep calm & carry on.